a horrible doubt

What a horrible time, to be in doubt.
Am I all wrong?
Does the papir work, and books with reading as it's contet,
speak more to me than the other?
Was the greater meaning the language we call our mother?
Definitely.. In doubt.

I'm creative, I love writing, I like reading, I like learning.
What the hell was I thinking?
I can't sell anything, I ain't going to stand in some shitty store,
I ain't comning near marketing.
I'm sad now..
It's too late to change now. Live with this decision.

Even though the other might have lead to greater things..

Damn it